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“Some people are old at 18 and some are young at 90. Time is a concept that humans created.” ― Yoko Ono

I had to find joy again. Joy on the bike. The thing that makes it fun. The thing that gives it purpose, reason.

I first started to ride a bike for three reasons: to lose weight and avoid diabetes, to get around town with the kids (bike trailer is easier than car seats), and to train for a race. Fun? No. Not the reason. But I quickly found that fun was the byproduct. And that’s what kept me going. That and my fierce determination to be awesome.

So it’s been odd that I don’t seem to have any of those same reasons presently. I have really only been riding for fun. And with the big race and a couple of exploratory (read: “unpleasant”) rides since then, I’ve been somewhat more than  burned out on the whole bike thing.

Well today I went to hit the trail and find the fun again. I wanted to feel like a kid on a bike again. I wanted to ride free and loose and just let my body do what it knows how to do- find the flow.

I think for at least a little bit, I did. Okay, maybe more than a little bit. Maybe a lot a bit. When I finished up the ride I’d had a great time- ridden for about 2 hours and 18.5 miles. I was tired, but I was smiling.

But it got me to thinking about those motivations I used to have. I wonder if I could rekindle them? I wonder how I lost them to begin with? What has taken priority over them? would I rather fun be the motivational factor or the byproduct.

I can’t say I have answers to these questions yet, but I’m exploring them. In the non-suffering way. And I feel encouraged.

I love the light on the Monument cliffs. Always.
I love the light on the Monument cliffs. Always.
Lots of tumbleweed obscuring the trails.
Lots of tumbleweed obscuring the trails.
Took care of it.
Took care of it.
With the Grand Valley in the background.
With the Grand Valley in the background.
Bookcliffs in the background.
Bookcliffs in the background.
Straight, flat and dry. Just like me!
Straight, flat and dry. Just like me!

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