“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.”
J.K. Rowling

I can hardly believe that it’s been nearly a year since I last wrote. Yet such is life.

I’ve spent the last year struggling in so many ways, and loving my life in so many ways. I’ve accomplished some things, and failed at far more.

But the good news is, I’ve been learning from every experience.

I’ve discovered this insane need to change- I’ve developed some habits and mindsets that I just hate hate hate- but to date, nothing I have tried has created lasting change. Steve Chandler would be so pissed at that statement. Ha ha ha!

I have discovered many tools, etc. The thing is: I feel like every day is a transition. Every week I see change trying to happen in my life, but every week it’s still the same. It’s a very odd sensation: for someone like me, who, on a whim will set a goal and then do what I have to to achieve it.

This brings me to why I’m writing again. I want to make the change happen and keeping it to myself is kind of…not working.

So here’s where I’m at: I’m in the worst physical shape I’ve been in  since 2010. I don’t sleep enough, I don’t have a routine that’s working for me. And though  I have some pretty lofty physical goals set for myself, they don’t seem to be motivation enough.

I have no doubt that part of my issue is that I have been struggling with my ‘work life’. Or my ‘career’. This has been an issue for me over the last couple of years. I keep trying new things -brilliant things!- but they haven’t been the right things. Either they don’t sell, or I end up not wanting to do it, or I make excuses, or it doesn’t seem worthwhile or….or…or…

So I’ve explored where my issues might lie, discovered many potential solutions, and finally feel like I know what I WANT to do (ironically, it’s the same thing I said I wanted to do a year ago, but didn’t think would fly or be lucrative enough). But just thinking about it makes me soar. I have so many ideas, I really feel like I can contribute in a way I want, and I think I can make it pretty lucrative as well. I still have a lot of research to do, but I’m enthusiastic.

Why am I writing then?

Because I need measures. Here’s what I NEED to do:

  1. Establish and maintain a daily morning routine that helps me accomplish the tasks I want to do DAILY (meditation, exercise, writing, affirmations, motivation, etc.)
  2. Clean up my diet so that I can feel and be healthier. This means I will no longer be drinking my calories.
  3. Continue my exercise plan- with focus on being 100% confident in my physical strength and endurance for my upcoming bike trip.
  4. Ensure I get proper sleep every night.

Just those four things. Doesn’t seem too hard. Have a routine. Eat right. Exercise. Sleep.

See- I know what I need to do. Now I just have to do it.

Tomorrow I’ll think about how I’m going to measure the success of these things. Should I post measurements? Like weight, size, etc? Hmm….I’m going to think on it. Metrics, baby, metrics.

For now…enjoy some pictures of my trail adventures over the last year!

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