“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
― Marianne WilliamsonA Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”

Love that quote. Because I think it’s true for me. I’m not so much afraid that I will fail- I anticipate failure. But rather if I reach up, it’s so much farther to fall when failure does take me down.

I’m working on it.

And today I worked on drops. Again. I was angry and frustrated to tears at myself the other day for not doing what needed to be done while Sienna was helping me. So today I took matters into my own hands. I called up my Dave and told him to come help me learn to drop. I think it’s okay with him because I’ve finally realized that he’ll still be my friend and think I’m and okay dude even if/when I fall flat on my ass in an embarrassing display.

So we started on my street- dropping off the neighbor’s rock wall. Then we moved to the park, the rock wall there and the curbs and stairs. We started getting low on time so we went up to that same drop on Curt’s lane that I kept freaking out on with Sienna.

Here’s how it went down:

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